Priorities are HARD

When I'm sick, I have trouble with priorities. Here is a list of my priorities in descending order of importance when I'm sick.

Meds (the sick people kind)
Sleep (the only time sleep isn't first on my list is when I'm sick because meds make it possible to sleep)
Food (because holy crap I'm hungry when I'm sick...ALL the time)
Insulin (because I realize that I need to take this in order to not die and be even more sick that I already am)
Symlin (because I don't want to over eat since I'm hungry all the time and drive my blood sugar up and get fat. I actually GAIN weight when I'm sick.)
Work (because I don't want to get fired)

Notice anything missing? If you guessed "test blood sugar" or "keeping blood sugar in line" you win a prize! And by prize I mean knowing the right answer. I don't have prizes and besides, I just gave you the answer. There's no way to keep that fair!

When I'm sick I have a terrible time remembering to test my blood sugar and take the medications for that because I am far more distracted by all the other things going on. It should really be up there above "meds" but it's not. It's not even on the list! Then I wonder why I stay sick for so long.

My inability to remember things like this and put them in the correct priority is why my doctor initially proposed that I might be ADD. I, of course, having been tested for this tons of times when I was little because my mother is a psychologist resisted this until I had to get a paper done for a class and couldn't seem to get it done.  I agreed to try the adderol to see how it would go.

It worked wonderfully! Over time I was convinced that maybe I was just lazy and I was taking the adderol when I didn't need it and I felt bad for doing that for a number of reasons and decided that I needed to prove to myself that I was ADD and needed the drugs...by not taking them. So I don't take my medication when I need it. I tell myself that I don't really need it and then at the end of the day I got nothing done even though I was busy ALL day and I forgot to test my blood sugar even once. As a result I go "I must be ADD. I will take my pills!" and then promptly FORGET to take them because I haven't been taking them and I'm ADD and it's hard to remember that stuff when you're ADD.

My blood sugar testing has gotten better...even without the ADD meds but I imagine I could be far better at it with them. I just can't seem to remember to take it even though I have finally accepted that I have ADD and I haven't been lying to myself to have an excuse to be lazy. I just thought I was lazy because people always TOLD me I was lazy.

In conclusion: I suck at priorities because I have ADD and being sick makes my brain even more easily distracted so I suck even more at them.